I wanted to put these words down before I lost them. ~Mimi
Tchalai says: "We have learnt a great deal, in a painful act of balance between maintaining and blending in. Between self respect and survival. Add to this that there remains in our chromosomes the old conviction that, having descended from the stars we shall go back to the stars. No one will ever be able to translate the profound melody of blood and memory. It has to be shared. It cannot be MADE to share."
I like that-"the profound melody of blood and memory."
I thank you for your comments on the last blog post. I do so love you all. :)
Worry not, for I am not afraid. And I'm quite positive that I don't want to meet up with my birth parents, especially in some Jerry Springer/Dr. Phil-style drama. I care naught for her reasons or his excuses. Decisions were made and I hold no ill will. Absolutely none. And, being the loner and wanderer that I am I have no desire to bring another set of people into my life. I seek no relationships. My quest here, is to go back further. Way back. To the blood and bone and heart and soul of my heritage. To know my past.
I just don't feel (and never have) that I am who others say I am. I want to say: "My great-great-great grandfather stood here." For me, it's all about the blood.
How will I do this? Probably quite passively. I believe the Universe has a way of taking you exactly where you need to be. And I'm going to trust in that. Sometimes the less we do....the more we gain. But I do know this-it will be a wondrous journey! Thanks for your willingness to share it with me.
Where do we go from here? The sky's the limit! Come fly with me!